不能说的秘密

2009-11-27T22:27:00.002+08:00

甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了

结尾来得太突然
很多话只能说一半
这场故事因你被终断
我永远找不到
想找到的答案

剧本被撕成两半
无法把这场故事演完
脑海里只有一片混乱
你留下的只有
一幕幕的遗憾

你就这样走了一句话也没说
你把故事的结局都归于我的过错
故事的主角只剩下我一个人难过
开幕的剧场成了回忆的场所

2009-11-26T19:23:00.003+08:00

不明白
不了解
不体谅
不知道

这些全都是我
永远都会是我

而我失落的心情
有谁能理解

2009-10-30T10:18:00.002+08:00

我爱你你爱我是不是还不够
我不懂为什么付出的全落空
无重力爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手还能抓住什么

2009-10-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

好想把你藏起来
藏在胸前的口袋
把你暖暖地融化
你就再也离不开
我要把你藏起来
永远呵护这份爱
从此不让别人想
只准和我一个人相爱

2009-10-15T14:32:00.001+08:00

things r jus not going well... afew more days till my school starts n we cant even have some happy moments tgr?

2009-10-15T10:36:00.004+08:00

ARGH!

Y do i always have this negative thoughts in my mind? I don understand u at all.. yes. i admit it, he understands u more den i do... u told me u're completely over him, but tt don seems like e case to me. I don wan to lose u.. but if u think i'm not good enough for u, i'll let u find ur true happiness...

I love u...

Ignore this post.. i jus feel like letting it out...

2009-10-15T10:12:00.002+08:00

Today is e last day i will be going over to ur office pei u for lunch n send u hm.. but it seems like we wont be having lunch today.. haiz.. saded.. 4 more days till sch starts.. but we can onli meet 3 times e most ba.. today will be a short one... so i'm looking forward to tmw... as for sat... maybe its gonna be a short one too ba... i always find time is not enough...

我很难了解...
我不了解你...
或许我真的一点都不了解你...
你真的把他给忘了吗？

2009-10-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

为什么我种觉得一切将会不一样？
总是有着一个不祥的预感...
希望只是我自己想太多...

I wan things to change for e better... not the worse...

2009-10-08T23:08:00.003+08:00

I tot we were strong enough.. but sometimes it seems wrong..

Today had a small quarrel with u... I oso dono y i'll get angry over tt small matter.. hope this wont spoil our relationship...

I wan us to last... I wan our relation to get stronger n stronger each day...

I'm sorry to have let u down....

2009-10-08T13:54:00.001+08:00

10 more days... realli cant imagine how life would be after my sch starts.. so used to meeting u almost everyday... once my sch starts wanna meet up with u oso quite difficult le.. hai.. i'm gonna miss u.. badly

2009-10-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

Compare to u... i seems soooo childish n immature. I tot i'm mature enough to handle things, but wat happen these few days prove me wrong. I'm still childish at times n cant handle a simple situation well... I messed up! I've hurt myself n i've hurt u even more... I'm sorry...

Time to grow up YJ! You cant afford to waste ur time n be childish anymore! N u cant afford to lose her, cant afford to make her cry.. make her sad.

2009-10-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

Almost 1 month le, so many things happen within this 1 month.. kinda like a roller coaster ride, lots of ups n downs. but its all for e better, as i know e truth. i rather e truth hurts me den not knowing it at all...

Oct le.. meaning my holidays r ending soon. e thing tt i fear most.. hopefully nothing will change after my sch starts.. i cant afford to let u slip pass me, u holds a veri impt n special position in my heart...

I'm not in a good mood...

2009-09-30T10:29:00.002+08:00

Yes.. finally no more nightmares... in fact i'm having a sweet dream ytd night despite my headache... haha..

2009-09-29T08:54:00.002+08:00

Another nightmare woke me up this morning... its jus a nightmare after all.. maybe i had too much on my mind... haha..

Seeing u this way makes my heart aches... knowing tt i cant do anything to help u feel better makes me feel so useless...

原本以为一切都没事了
可是事情总是没有我想的那么简单
如果你能回到过去改变一切
我们还会相遇吗？

2009-09-27T10:08:00.001+08:00

What a nightmare i have... still can rmb wat happen so clearly... I hope this scene will nvr appear in my entire life... saded

2009-09-19T01:29:00.002+08:00

我不会放弃你，不会离开你

因为你是我最想守护的人...

2009-09-14T10:18:00.001+08:00

有谁会愿意看到自己心爱的人伤心，而自己却什么忙也帮不上

快乐什么时候会结束呢？

我希望它会像时间一样，无禁止的一直走下去，直到永远

想把你紧紧抱着，应为知道你是我生命中的最舍不得

2009-09-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

Got a suprise sms from u today which really brightens up my day! Ur this message get rid of all my tiredness after my work... hehe... thanks darling~

2009-09-12T12:19:00.001+08:00

Can i cry? jus feel like crying my heart out... i know its my own fault... i break tt trust u gave.. but i really didn't mean it... sorry. jus let me be weak for 5min...

but i'm gonna make it up tonight..

Only u can put a smile on me...

2009-09-12T11:51:00.000+08:00

I'm not in a good mood... i'm sad.. i'm sorry.. leave me alone.. don bother abt me

2009-09-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

I'm having my usual stomachache again.. but its not tt serious this time.

Alot of things happen and all is cannot be told here.. haha. Really hope everything will turn out e way i wanted...

I dono y.. but e feeling of u leaving me seems to be getting stronger... plz tell me i'm thinking too much.. i wan us to last.. i really love u... i wanna hold u in my arms forever.. till my last breath...

2009-09-08T21:44:00.001+08:00

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

2009-09-08T10:42:00.000+08:00

我会很爱很爱你一百个世纪
很爱很爱你没人能代替
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你四季不休息

2009-09-06T09:55:00.000+08:00

wait.. before i go.. haha..

元杰名言：
有男朋友可以分手，结婚可以离婚，有孩子可以领养。

2009-09-06T09:48:00.000+08:00

I nvr slp alot again.. slept at around 3, 4 plus am ba.. actually plan to slp till 10am de.. but 8plus i wake up le.. but, i don feel tired at all! LOL.

ok.. ytd had been a hell of e day... too much info.. too much facts at one go.. i feel like my mind was blowing up! but its alright, i'm accepting them all... i choose my own path.. n i know its not gonna be easy n i don wanna regret later in life..

alright.. gonna go shower n get my butt to work liao!

2009-09-05T12:41:00.000+08:00

I'm totally speechless... No words can describe my feelings now... I think even Horlan cannot fully describe it...

Truth usually hurts huh??

I jus wanna be left alone... i need time to think...

2009-09-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

I'm in a bad mood again... only u have e ability to cause me a mood swing...

Life is nvr a fair game huh?

2009-09-04T17:23:00.000+08:00

Everytime.. things are not going e way i expected.. not going e way i wan... I really hate this feeling...

我真的只能永远当配角吗？

2009-09-03T02:18:00.002+08:00

那一天那一個瞬間
遇見了妳世界忽然有了意義
每一分每一秒被妳牽引
好想保護妳又不敢靠近
如果凡人愛上了天使的笑容
該怎麼擁有
是否妳願意為我墜入凡塵
妳有天使的眼睛
美麗幻化成流星
消失前照亮我的天空
卻不留軌跡
妳有天使的羽翼
展問隨風飛離
來不及
不敢說的秘密
就是我愛妳
遙遠的距離

2009-09-03T01:03:00.003+08:00

Today is e 1st time we hang out this long together... 845am in e morning... all e way till 7pm. 10hours 15min. hehe.

went to airport T3 to have our breakfast there and walk walk around there... taking e sky train to T1, sit at Viewing Mall chit chat... Went Ikea during lunch time, try out all e sofa... beds.. go to kids section n play with e toys there.. haha. Went to Tampines 1 to have our late lunch over there.. play at e arcade... go pet shop see e cute rabbit... shop around there... take bus back to yishun aound 5plus... had another chit chat at e park there... haha.. all e fun n laughter.. i wont forget them.. I've enjoyed myself n hope u did too..

I should be happy.. but i dono y i got this feeling tt u wont be able to break up with him... i know i don have e rights to demand anything from u... but... i jus wish tt... u'll be mine, jus mine... i don wan our status to stay like this... it realli hurts to feel this way... it realli hurts to feel tt i cant be e one by ur side... 我是真的真的很爱你... 你会为了我而放弃他吗？

2009-08-24T19:48:00.001+08:00

Tired to think + tired to see + tired to say + tired to listen = tired of my life.

There's so much I dono about u... so much I wanna know...

2009-08-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

I feel tt something is wrong.. something's on ur mind.. but u wont tell... izzit i haven gain enough trust from u to tell me u problems? shouldn't we share everything together? forget it ba...

Just not my day today... Feeling !@#$%^&* now...

2009-08-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

ITS SUPER BORING! Exams are coming and i still slacking! Don have e exam mood yet.. shit.. my GPA is so gonna drop this sem. ... but i'm going study with my classmates at Tampines area later.. how it will be a fruitful one!

Not even a single sms from u since ytd night... How's ur day today? Did u eat all ur meals? How's ur cough? What have u been doing the whole day? etc. etc... Got so many things I wanna ask, say, tell u... I dono what e reason might be.. but hope u're doing fine today.. I miss u...

2009-08-20T10:01:00.002+08:00

Ytd went for a movie with her.. watched Where Got Ghost? at cwp.. e movie is not very nice.. but its not abt e movie, its abt being with her.. haha!

Our 1st movie is a unforgettable one... really fun and sweet.. We had popcorns and coke for our lunch... and after movie i jus send her back to her office... although its another short date but i'm loving it! and i know u do too. hehe.

U always say its jus a sweet beginning... but we can keep things sweet throughout if u wan.. like i always tell u.. it may be a sweet beginning.. but its gonna be an never ending love...

19th of Aug 2009... a date to remember... our first kiss...

2009-08-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

Today is one of e most happy days i had since i know u...

Had lunch with my darling at cwp today and we spent abt an hour walk walk ard there.. Haha. went to arcade after lunch, play her fav bi-shi-bash-shi and we shot some dinos! LOL! It was fun... went to Courts to see random stuffs.. check out e laptops... try e sofa... go Kiddy Palace see n play with e toys... haha... jus randomly walk ard cwp today. Although today e time we spent is short but can still consider a date ba.. LOL.. coz usually i onli meet her for lunch or jus send her go CDC.. :)

I'll rmb how we change seats in e bus today coz gt ppl sit behind us.. HAHA! I'll miss ur smiles.. ur laughter... e way u 嘟嘴 when i disturb u.. e way u lie on my shoulders... e way u squeeze my arms.. :$ ... I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT U!!!

Hope u've enjoyed urself.. and hope we'll have more time like this together... I had fun today... thanks for e accompany baby!

A sweet beginning... An never ending love

2009-08-07T13:13:00.000+08:00

不知道为什么... 今天心情很不好

....是我想太多吧...

2009-08-01T13:44:00.002+08:00

如果没有了他，你会不会有多一点的时间陪我？

2009-07-04T13:17:00.001+08:00

2009-07-03T23:01:00.001+08:00

i know i may be a nobody to u, but u're gonna be my everything.

2009-07-03T18:19:00.001+08:00

Yes! Finally get to meet her.. although its jus a short lunch but i already feel veri happy le.. thanks for accompanying me for lunch.

2009-05-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

Read a veri interesting article today.. i think its a few days back de chinese newspaper... its abt Mr Goh Chok Tong kena chicken pox de new... in the paper they write tt the chicken pox virus infected Mr Goh Chok Tong de right eye den he nearly go blind.. the doctor says tt getting chicken pox virus infecting the eye is even harder den striking TOTO.. the percentage of chicken pox virus infect the eyes is veri veri slim, only 1 in 1,000,000 ppl will kena.. Haha.. when i read this i laugh to myself... Singapore got about 4.something millions of ppl. which means in SG there will be 4 "lucky" ppl that will strike this "TOTO".

Well, Mr Goh Chok Tong had already strike le... who is the other "lucky" 3? Yes! I'm one of the "lucky" guy! except i'm even "luckier" den Mr Goh Chok Tong. he nearly get blind, but i'm on my way to blindness.. the chicken pox virus seriously affected my left eye. Making my left eye de pupil diluted, now my left eye is long-sighted (which is like old ppl de eye sight, in chinese call lao hua yan ,老花眼 ) my left eye is veri sensitive to sunlight and i have a good chance of getting blind as time goes by. i cant get a pair of normal glasses, all my specs need to be special order.. import from other countries... need to be transition lens some more.. making a spec will cost around $300-$400 each time.. i cant wear contact lens as it wont have my degree and i need to special order if i realli wan to wear... n again.. it is ex!

Now everytime out in the sun, i need to close my left eye as it is realli glaring to my eye n making it uncomfortable.. coz of my eye my NS status is PES C, not cos i'm physically unfit, its coz of my eyes. although some ppl will say PES C relac one la.. office work onli.. but thinking abt it some ppl will say tt PES C is sick chicken or even Ah-Gua solider.. hear le oso wont feel happy one rite? Haiz... Oh ya! And most importantly, Mr Goh Chok Tong onli kena when he is in his 60s and i kena when i was 12 or 13!

2009-05-20T23:08:00.006+08:00

Had ICPFA lab today, n Farris found something during lab.. n we had it seem under a microscope.... n and is wat we saw....
The small black dot is wat Farris found... this is e actual size compare to my finger... Guess wat is it?

This is a closer look under a microscope in out ICPFA lab... Its an INSECT!

This is a much clearer picture of the insect... cool huh? this pics looks like a moon den e insect is on the moon rite?? hahaha.. oh ya.. e insect is still alive when is whole process happen.. LOL

2009-05-20T23:03:00.003+08:00

Went shopping with Boss ytd after school... he wanan buy shirt den ask mi accompany him... go to different places to check it out.. Far East, PS, Vivo... lol. at last he brought a shirt from Vivo... but try out alot of shirts myself.. haha! All veri nice! but i've onli taken photo of one of shirt.. think this is at TOPMAN in Vivo...
I think i prefer shirts to t-shirts now. lol. gonna staet wearing shirt to school!

2009-05-20T22:54:00.005+08:00

went fishing with Sham n Wayne on last tuesday i think. den finally this time wayne gt catch! den mi n sham gt nothing.. haha.. but anyway, congrats wayne! i'll post e photo below.. hehe

Nice rite? e sun blocked by e cloud, den e sun beam from it is so nice

Both are caught by wayne.. haha

2009-05-17T03:40:00.002+08:00

Feels so good after a nice cold shower. jus reach home.. initially tot of walking home all e way from dbl O de.. haha. coz don wan waste e money take cab home.. coz i'm broke! but lucky in e end i rmb gt NR6 go sengkang den sharon they all tell mi where to take NR. LOL. today go dinner with e old fishy gang to celebrate xue tao n yuan shing birthday at Heeren de Shodoku (dono spell correct anot) LOL. after tt they decide go club den we go Obar. i tot dbl O there before 10pm guys is $10 onli lor.. in e end its $20... den we reach after 10pm.. so its $25.. even more argh! i already left with not much le still lydat. at 1st still ok down there.. but after sharon, justin, yong kwang go eat supper den yuan shing n yijie go back everything become so boring. i'm not realli tt close with e rest of e gang.. den they down there like having their own fun onli.. i was all e way like alone down there lor.. dance oso dance along... haiz.. BORING! clubbing used to be so fun... but now. clubbing is so not fun with ppl tt u r not close with.. clubbing is so not fun when e music is not all so nice.. ARGH! i swear i wont go club with ppl i not close with anymore. ITS SO DAMN BORING!

i tot i've already finish all my reports already den i can relax on sunday (which is today). but when i'm showering jus now i rmbed tt i still have one more draft to write!! oh god... hmwk hmwk hmwk... life's jus too boring man...

its kinda long since i've post such a long post le.. haha. think i'm gonna continue writing.. lol.

ok.. wat am i gonna say?? lets talk abt girls.. hehe. now single le.. but still when i saw those girls tt i'm interested in ar, i realli don dare to talk to them or get to know them.. i kinda like this girl in my CDS class but u know i don have e skills, don have e looks, how am i gonna win any girls rite? haha. maybe becoz i'm jus too scare of commitment le ba.. having a gf is gd but.. haiz... i jus don have e courage to go for it now ba.. maybe having crush with those pretty girls i saw on street is much better. LOL. tired le.. signing off le ba.. nitez blog...

2009-05-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

OMG! I make wayne's bike fall today! Haiz. feels so bad la. his bike gt scratches le.. he fetch mi go find xueli change back our Wii controller den go Hougang Mall for dinner with chris, ck, qi. thanks wayne!

Heard something funny from qi jus now....
A ask B : What is the purpose of u playing maplestory?
B reply : To level up.
A : Level up le leh?
B : So i can fight stronger monster.
A : Fight stronger monster den?
B : So i can level up.
A : Level up le den?
B : Fight stronger monster.
A : Fight stronger monster den?
B : Level up lor.

and this conversation goes on and on.. LOL

U look better with ur reborn-ed hair.

2009-05-10T14:53:00.000+08:00

Some things will have to end eventually... its for ur own good.

2009-05-10T02:06:00.000+08:00

Walao! Dinner BO JIO LA! I nvr eat dinner today sia!

2009-05-09T21:39:00.002+08:00

OMG! I'm so bored at home now! Although i have my Wii le but still... playing alone is so.. argh! BORRING! No one's home.. onli my bro, he's been slping since later afternoon till now.. so so bored!!!

N i still have a report to write, a quiz to study for... haiz... so lazy to do everything... life's so borring.

i guess ur papers are ending soon le rite? hope u did well for all. take care of urself.

2009-05-05T10:00:00.002+08:00

Din go sch today. Haha. Guess gonna rot at home for another day le.

I know ur exams are coming soon. Good Luck n Jia You!

2009-05-04T12:27:00.001+08:00

3 days of MC! Can u believe tt? Haiz. its jus normal flu n fever den e doc give mi 3 days MC.. good luck to me...

2009-05-03T21:51:00.001+08:00

OMG!! I'm running a slight fever now! Haiz. afternoon keep sneezing den i tot its nothing much. but jus reach home n take temperature, 37.5. although not veri high la, but i still feel e feverish feeling.. haiz.. i don wanna fall sick!!!!!!

2009-05-02T08:55:00.000+08:00

Good morning! Rise n shine! think its e 1st time i blog so earli in the morning.. LOL. I jus remembered i got a lab report due this monday! Awww.. 4 pages somemore.. its totally a turn off for the day... haiz.. guess i'm gonna do it after my breakfast.. boring~

2009-05-01T23:26:00.002+08:00

haiz.. i tot can get my Wii by tmw... but so sad.. need to wait one more day.. sunday den can get... haiz... sob sob. gonna rot at home for another day doing nothing again. saded. anyway, hope can get it my sunday! I realli wanna play Wii~

haiz.. my life is jus moving in circle. i cant move on, n i don wanna go back.

2009-04-30T17:22:00.002+08:00

another boring day... jus reach home after school... tired! Sch's so boring n tirring.... zZzZz

tmw's a holiday but it make no diff to me, coz i every fri oso no sch. LOL! realli looking forward to this saturday coz i'm getting my Wii~! hope nothing goes wrong den can play on sat! HAHA!

2009-04-25T19:27:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!! The weather is KILLING ME! Its giving me sunburn when i go fishing, making me sweat even if i'm siting in front of e fan! I'm gonna die of heat stroke!

2009-04-22T23:45:00.002+08:00

Today i had e most fun lesson in my current studies. Guess wat subject is it? Its Understanding Theatre! At 1st i tot is those listen to lecture talking abt those western n eastern play onli. but it turn out totally diff! We have to learn how to act, walk, talk on stage! and i give my 1st time to this class... haha.. guess wat. i kneel down in front of a girl n propose to her! OMG! But its fun la, getting to act n all those. haha. i totally love this class!

2009-04-20T22:03:00.003+08:00

1st day of sch... n i'm super tired! ytd slept at 930pm until this morning 7am den wake up. tot i'll be refresh n can go sch but still... i slept throught all e lessons.. lol. some more class from 9am - 6pm.. super tired... zZzZzZz

2009-04-19T20:46:00.002+08:00

Work at SPH for their events on sat n sun.. den on sat i met my new "girlfriend"! Haha. She's cute n pretty rite? Her name's Drea.. love it when she smiles. We keep playing with her during our free time. She love Hi^5! Hi^5 Drea!

2009-04-13T09:42:00.003+08:00

Went fishing with Sham on Good Friday. It really is a GOOD Friday for me! Haha. 1st time got a double hook catch! Cast less den 3min den got bite le! Haha. 2 different kind of fish somemore.

Although its not that big, but i'm still happy enough!

2009-04-01T18:41:00.003+08:00

YAHOO~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long time nvr blog le.. haha. Finally got my BEST birthday present on Monday 30th march! YES! No doubt! Its my DRIVING LICENSE! WAHAHAHAHA! So happy to pass my TP on e 1st try. Finally i'm a driver~

2009-03-03T15:14:00.094+08:00

This is e pics during kbox session. But HEY! They didn't take photos of me singing!

________________Another xing fu photo.. LOL

_____________________Can't avoid tar-ing since i'm e birthday boy..

_____________________Feels like a Superstar~

______I've always tot it was quite easy blowing e candles from this far. But i was wrong!

_________________Happy birthday to me!

_____________________P.S. I'm not gay...

_________________Clique'rz RoX!

Chris is not giving e camera a hi^5. He's planning to push my head into e cake!

________________Good friends always sabo each others. LOL!

_________________See?

I have alot of fun tt day! Realli thx to u guys! Love u guys lots! Muackz!

P.S. I look red is not coz i'm drunk but its i got sunburned!

2009-03-03T14:36:00.020+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! I finally got my birthday celebration photos le! Before kbox session.. dinner at MOF Marina Square.

_________________Our group photo! Seems like Chris is e Birthday Boy. U stole my

_________________limelight

_________________U stole my limelight AGAIN! LOL!

_________________Clique'rz

_________________Feels so shy taking photo with 4 pretty girls... *blush*

_______How many times in ur life u'll get to hug 4 pretty girls at e same time?? LOL!

_________________Still discussing our formation.. lol...

_________________1st attempt failed!

_________________Finally!

2009-02-28T15:50:00.003+08:00

"Happy Birthday" to me!
"Happy Birthday" to me!
"Happy Birthday" to Yuan Jie~
"Happy Birthday" to me!

Its my "birthday" again... Haiz.. e bad thing about having born on leap year.... every year some ppl will totally forget abt it coz there's no actual day! Most of my frens wish my happy birthday will normally say one thing : "hey, this year no actual day so oso not sure which day to wish u. Anyway, Happy Birthday!" LOL... I'm really happy tt u guys will still rmb abt it. hehe. Thanks guys! Love ya guys lots!

Alright! As for my birthday wish this year is very simple. Jus hope tt u guys will be able to accompany me for the day. Don need any present, don need any surprise, don need any cakes, jus ur accompany.

Haha! Time to say out my birthday wish list!
What i needed?
-1st thing 1st ofcoz is money! I'm damn broke man, no work no income... haiz.
-2nd : pass my exams ar! Huat AH!
-3rd : Hope to pass my TP this coming march 30th.

What I wanted?
-1st on e list is confirm Nintendo Wii!
-2nd : I've been thinking of buying a Crampler bag, a dark green one. saw ppl take on street but its kinda small, hope gt bigger de.
-3rd : A new phone! Actually eyeing one Sony Ericsson de Xperia X1. But tt day go their website gt a new phone coming out, Idou, 12.1 mega pix camera leh.
-4th : Wanted all my frens n family to be happy happy happy!

2009-02-19T09:50:00.002+08:00

My exams are starting tmw and i'm still lazing around... haiz... realli don have e mood to study.. don have e mood to do anything..

dono why i keep having some strange dreams these few days.. realli didn't have a proper sleep...

why do i still dream of u? In my dreams, u'll always be there for me...

2009-02-16T19:04:00.004+08:00

I guess I jus prefer my same old boring life...

don need to worry about anything much...

sleep when i feel like it...
watch shows online when i feel like it...
play games when i feel like it...
go out with my frens when i feel like it...

don need to spend time with another person when i'm busy/tired...
don need to stress thinking wat to get for another person during special occasions...
don need to quarrel with another person over small matters...
don need to listen to another person nagging...
don need to "hong" another person when i did smt tt upset her...
don need to restrict myself to do whatever things i like to do...

but... i do feel lonely at times... boring and sian...
but... i know you'll lead a happier life without me...

2009-02-15T16:24:00.002+08:00

相爱容易相处难

虽然相爱但也只能默默的祝福对方

你想要的不是我能付出的

我想要的不是你能接受的

我感觉得到我对拟将永远永远的思念

2009-02-14T13:16:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

Wishing all the loving couples out there have a romantic night.

What is love? What is romantic? I really donno any of these anymore...
Love is so troublesome, u need to spend time with tt special someone even if u're really tired from work n studies. If u do something that displease them, u'll get yourself into deep shit. Quarreling... Crying... I'm really sick and tired of all these. I just wanna live my life my way.
Having someone by ur side to accompany u is great, but when quarreling come, u'll find it all f**k up. Why can't we jus stay single? Being able to do what u wan without someone else bothering about u... Haiz..

Anyone out there willing to change my mind set on love and relationship?

2009-02-10T16:37:00.002+08:00

Finally its over. I don own others anymore things.

All thats left for me to do is jus to concentrate on my exams and TP.

2009-01-14T23:32:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHH!! Sian ar! Today everythings jus don seems to be going smooth for me.. do the PS speech draft oso tio kan by teacher... den MCT connection oso veri jialat.. ZzZzZzZz... I start to hate poly life.. so many projects, assignments, test to complete, so little time..

2009-01-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

Finally passed my FTT after 3 try. lol. but too bad e system down mus wait till tmw den can book my TP. earliest TP is in march 11.. still veri far away... sianz...

2009-01-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

I'm really sick and tired of everything! Can't even have my own freedom to do wat I wanted, think wat I wanted! This feeling SUCKS!!!

2009-01-05T23:07:00.006+08:00

Suddenly miss my fishy gang alot man.. really miss working life at fishy.. from kitchen come out to learn service line.. realli learn alot from there... especially from Auntie, PK and JinBo.. but now times change le... JinBo is no longer in SG with us.. e manager at fishy now oso don seems nice.. all e ppl i know alot all left... realli missed working with Yuan Shing (always bully me in kitchen lor), Mark (my best bro at work!), Kenneth, Kok Wee, Chun Hong, Xue Hong, Xue Tao, Zhou Ming and alot more.. realli had fun working with them in kitchen.. As for service line, i miss most will be YiJie! Haha! Always talk cock with her when there's nothing to do lor.. still rmb with fishy bar still have alcohol, she will "steal" abit for both of us! LOL! Fun days huh? Oso missed disturbing all e FOH staffs! Haha. Hui Ping, Chrystal, Stefanie, Yi Shin, Yen Suan, May, Sharon, Yen Qi, Nydiah1 & 2 and alot more.. all gt "bullied" by me at least once.. Haha. Still rmb tt Nydiah 2 will hug me everytime she sees me.. haha.. realli feels gd knowing ur frens still rmb n cares abt u... Hehe.. but all this is e past le... everything changed.. Haiz.. Some things jus wont be e same anymore...

I miss u guys... especially u Kimmy

2009-01-01T18:49:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 2008~ And Hello 2009!!

ytd went countdown with sharon they all at Vivo City. after tt meet up with Chris they all at Ehub for movie. and yes, Victor finally got his license n drive to meet us. I drive 2 rounds around e car park using his car, but i'm totally like noob la. totally forget how to drive. lol. anywaym u kinda miss working at fishy man. lol. no more working no more income. sianz..

Happy 2009!!!

2008-12-29T17:38:00.002+08:00

Holidays over. Sianz... Did nothing much in e holidays, onli mj mj all e way.. lol. Today 1st day of school.. got back 2 papers le.. Digital IC & E-Maths 3. lucky pass both 71 for Digital IC & 50 for Maths. realli lucky lor.. lol. hope can pass e rest of e papers too.

2008-12-25T18:13:00.002+08:00

HO! HO! HO! MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Ytd went for movie with Clique'rz. Haha. Kinda long nvr see them le. I saw e preview of X'mas & New Year countdown at sentosa like super fun lor. I should go to one of e countdown party if I have e chance! Haha. Anyway.. today Christmas nothing to do oso.. rotting at home.. other countries X'mas snow, SG is rain... Burrrrrr~ Cold weather throughout e whole day. Hehe.

2008-12-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

为什么人们通常都执著于过去，而不朝向未来？
我想要得只是一个美好的未来，一个没有天天争吵的未来。
不过这一切好像都不太可能了吧？

2008-12-22T22:32:00.002+08:00

Finally reach Singapore le. Haha. Batam had nothing much to do de lor.. kinda boring actually. But e food n things there r cheap la.. lol. Went for full body massage.. brought jeans, belt, basketball. Haha. Some more there have A&W! Its a good place for relaxing la. Lol. Next time when i retire can consider staying over there. Haha. All these 3 days we keep eat n eat n eat onli ar.. e shopping malls kinda similar to Singapore de leh.. haha. onli cheaper. If gt chance maybe will go again. Hehe

2008-12-14T22:44:00.002+08:00

Jus come back from my aunt's place. Had a early X'mas party today. Haha. As usual, nvr win e big prize again.. sob sob. But my mum brought us t-shirts. Lol. Better den nothing. Haha. Merry X'mas!

2008-12-12T17:51:00.002+08:00

HOLIDAY LO!!!
Yes! Finally all e papers are over! Its really killing me man. 5 papers in 4 days... But i'm glad i've made it! Haha! Looking forward to 3 events during this 2 weeks of holiday...

14th dec : X'mas party at my aunt's place.
20th-22nd dec : Batam trip!
25th dec : Merry X'mas!

Haha. Mus really enjoy myself.. tired from all e studying.. nvr slp well for these few days too... hehe!

2008-12-11T21:51:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah! 1 more paper down. Tmw is e last paper!!! YESH!!! Jia you! Jia you! Jia you! Tmw going sch early to study. Haha.

Today is e 49th days u left us. This morning papa they all go temple to give prayers to u, but i didn't go. Sorry tt i couldn't make it coz my paper is in e morning today. Hope u're doing fine. I miss u...

2008-12-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

Alright! 3 down, 2 more to go! Tmw is MCT den fri will be Digital IC. Tmw's paper can say is my most confident paper. LOL. But fri de jiu.... don say le ba.. lol. Jia you! Jia you! Jia you! 2 more papers onli! Den its Holiday lo!

2008-12-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

The battle has began this morning! 2 down, 3 more to go!
Initially tot can score well for my E-Maths 3 but... haiz.. almost everyone was stun by e paper. My lecture always say: "How to fail E-Maths 3? All just follow formula book and do. Alot of people get A for E-Maths 3. It is easier den E-Maths 2." But now, looking at e paper.. damn it man! Tmw having SPDev, but i haven study yet. Gonna study after i shower later. Wish me luck!

As e days goes by, I'm feeling more n more sad. What has gotten into me man? I'm lost once again... Lost... There's nothing for me to look forward to, jus living my life aimlessly each day. I'm sad.

2008-12-08T00:35:00.002+08:00

Term test is jus around e corner but i totally don have e mood to study. Wats bothering me? I dono. Something is always bugging me, but i dono wat tt is. All i know is tt I'm not happy at all.

Haiz. Don think too much ba. Concentrate on ur studies Yuan Jie! Term test coming!

Signing off... nite...

2008-12-07T14:38:00.003+08:00

我一点也不开心
我不知道自己是否还喜欢你
我不知道自己想要的是什么
可是没有你的时候感觉有点寂寞
不知道自己的感觉
算了吧！想必你也不再喜欢我了吧

2008-12-04T21:45:00.002+08:00

Am i e one still holding on? or u? u seems happy with ur life now. guess life's better without me around. maybe i should learn to let go too. I'm not happy at all...

Sian...

2008-12-04T20:09:00.007+08:00

Long time no blog le ar. Coz busy with presentations.. studies.. term test is jus next week and i dono anything.. sure die.. But there is e pics i go fishing with Sham on 14th Nov.

__________________Flower Crab!!

___________________Stingray~ WOOT!

_______________Look at e nice long tail

2008-12-04T20:06:00.001+08:00

Cool rite??!! Haha! 1st time go in clean room for wafer fab lab. Mus wear all these ar, troublesome. But fun! LOL.

P.S - This pic taken on tuesday!

2008-11-30T19:46:00.002+08:00

Jus wake up not long ago.. this morning den come back from Pearl's chalet. Haha. Its quite fun la. play e in-between game den lose like hell lor.. from 10cents can lose till 10 to 20 over bucks. Haiz. Really have bad luck this yr ar.. cannot gamble. Confirm lose de leh..

My term test are coming real soon! And I don even know a single thing abit my subjects! Someone or something PLEASE push me to study! And u know wat? coz of e term test I'll have to cancel my 12th dec de FTT! Coz my last paper de time clash with my FTT. sian... now have to wait till 12th Jan 2009 den can have my FTT. haiz.. things really ain't going well for me huh?

I'm not really happy at all...

2008-11-24T18:32:00.002+08:00

Jus finish watching Guess Show on PPS. This epi is abt hot babes.. I tell u.. Its really OMG!!! I've got a weakness for girls with nice legs and slim waist. And if e girl have long hair den when she put her hair to one side of her shoulder.. its WOOT!! HOT! Haha. but ar, i'll nvr have e chance in my life to know these kinda girls. Everytime see a pretty girl, my mind set is tt she confirm got bf le.. den i not good looking enough to be in her league.. Haiz. saded.. But! I jus love looking at girls! HAHA.

Tmw got WFPT quiz.. den wed got SPDEV quiz.. totally dono anything abt these 2 subjects man.. haiz.. gonna be dead for sure... hope i'll pass my quiz ar...

2008-11-22T12:10:00.002+08:00

Haven been sleeping well these few day... I've been dreaming abt my ah ma these few days.. can't really remember e details.. jus tt i'll cry in my dreams sometimes... In my dreams, i nvr really saw her face.. like today, i dreamt of her again.. i cried and ask her how is she, but i cant rmb wat she reply me.. i really miss her alot.. I still rmb last time she always wanted me go get into a Poly, coz my cousins all get into a Poly n study. Now i've made it into TP. But she's not there to witness my graduation in 2 yrs time. Not able to see me starting my own family. Not giving me e chance of take care of her.. Its hard controlling my tears.. hard to control my emotions... I miss you

2008-11-19T22:03:00.003+08:00

Jus finish celebrating my sister's birthday. Haha.. everyone in e family is at home celebrating with her... everyone except my ah ma... everytime for our birthday, ah ma will give us ang bao. Its kinda like a chinese tradition ba i guess. Haha.. I really miss ah ma.. hope she's doing fine.. and Happy Birthday To You my little sister! Although u're short tempered at times.. u're still my sister... Happy Birthday!

Alright... gonna go back to finish up my report due tmw... haiz.. sian ar!

2008-11-18T19:56:00.002+08:00

Nowadays whenever I saw a pretty girl, their partner would be CMI de... Haiz.. He's jus a average looking guy why can he get such a pretty n sexy girl and cant I? Haha.. Maybe he got wat it takes ar.. But i'm so jealous of them! I wanna have a pretty and sexy girl at least once in my life! Haha! Wanna make other guys jealous of me! WAHAHAHAHA!

2008-11-17T21:56:00.002+08:00

Sianz... nothing to do... reach home around 5pm today... den had a short nap till 8pm lydat.. den wake up for my dinner... den around 9pm stomach pain.. even more sian... hahaha... now ok le la.. maybe gonna watch Heroes or Prison Break or Ten Brothers later...

2008-11-16T22:18:00.002+08:00

VERY LONG nvr blog le.. Haha..

- Thursday -
Nothing much happen.. go class as normal.. den end class at 7pm coz i go for Public Speaking de lecture. Oh ya.. due to e Mega MacSpicy on Wed... I today visit toilet alot of times.. lol..

- Friday -
Went fishing this morning! Had a very fruitful day! LOL! Finally I got big catch! Eh.. not very big la.. haha.. Caught 2 Stingray n a Flower Crab! One stingray is baby den I let go.. so onli bring home one stingray n flower crab.. had sunburn again lor.. sianz... now my body de colour not nice le.. haha.. will upload my catch de pics soon (e pics is taken using my another phone.. den its with Pearl now...)

Den after fishing went home shower n go Vivo shopping with Pearl. Brought a short sleeves shirt, i like it alot.. when gt money gonna buy my new jeans le.. haiz.. short of money ar!!

- Saturday -
Went to Bugis with CK in e late afternoon to buy something.. den shop at there with him lor... Pearl meet us in town around 7plus pm... had Mac for dinner. Guess wat? I had Mega Mac! Lol! I'm gonna try Mega Mac Griddles next time! Haha.. Go Bishan for movie tt night with Chris, Christina, William, CK, Pearl, Bird, Christina's fren, Jarael n her bf.. watched Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa. Not bad la.. quite funny at times...after movie go AMK LKP with them for awhile.. William sent us home after tt.. he's a nice guy!

- Sunday -
Nothing much happen today... play mj with my uncle, mother n Pearl.. onli me n Pearl lose lor.. she lose $10 den I lose $30... my mother cheat us our money.. sob sob...

2008-11-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

YES!! Finally finish printing my PBL notes for tmw use! And my Digital IC lecture notes too! Brought a new ink coz old one finish le.. coz me $60 man! Geez! Its ex de lor... den some more all those notes wasted around 100plus pieces of paper... Haiz.. I got pay e misc. fees for sch sia.. den they still need us print our own stuff online... stupid school... today class end at 7pm coz i go for Public Speaking de lecture. coz if i go today, this fri i'll have no lesson! Haha, coz fri morning de SPDEV tutorial cancel, den i don plan to go sch jus for 2 hours de lectures.. so no class on fri! Woot! Today after Public Speaking class i went to eat e Mega MacSpicy with Sham. Lol. Both of us eat till veri full lor.. its nice! But ex too... one Mega meal cost around $7plus... now still super full.. but still gonna slp coz tmw de lesson at 8am.. sian.. signing off.. nitez!

2008-11-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

Listening to songs had been a part of my life... so much so much of nice songs n good singers around... I love to sing too.. but I know I sux.. haha.. but nevertheless, I still enjoy singing...

Still feels like crying whenever I think of u... I miss u ah ma...

2008-11-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

南拳媽媽梁心颐 - 下雨天 MV

2008-11-09T23:44:00.009+08:00

我_我_什_只

真_什_么_想

的_么_也_一

累_也_不_个

了_不_想_人

__ 想_去_静

__ 去_想_一

__ 做___ 静

2008-11-09T08:08:00.008+08:00

游鸿明 - 爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真
忘了我的人
离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中
直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围
离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中
直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围